Today has been great...NOT for one thing my birthday is tomorrow. I hate it so much it is nothing but a huge disappointment, and now a huge reminder. My loving caring friends have decided that They are going to havenota party, but a "get together" for me friday night! They just cannot leave well enough alone seriouslY! you would think that they would have gotten the picture by now. I DONT WANT TO CELEBRATE MYBIRTHDAY! I dont know how many times I have to say it or how many ways I have to put it to make them understand that it is not a happy day for me, It is not a day worth celebrating!
Secondly my brother, nice loving caring brother he is! I am going to beat the crap out of him! I cannot deal with him anymroe!!! I had to make up a test today and I told him and the triplets that I was going to take like thirty minutes to take it so they would have to wait for me, well before I even started the test he called me and was like where the fuck are you at, and I was like making up my gemometry test and hewas like liek I am not waiting out here all fucking day and so I wasl ike well I am going to hurry thereis nothing i can do I have to make up this test. Well the whole time I was taking the test he was calling me cussing me out and stuff and there were like three of my teachers ssitting in there and I was jusyt like what ever so Ijust wrote down answers for the whole test and of course failed it, because I couldnt even concentrate and all of the teachers could hear what he wassaying because he was yelling and shit. when IU got out to the car I was just trying to hurry because I was already late for work and as soon as I got in the car he started yelling calling me a stupid bitch and told me I was nothing but I piece of shit and telling me he would fuck my face up and all thisstuff and I was like oh my god what the hell did I do to you!!!! so when we stopped at the triplets for me to get my work clothes he got out of the car and was still cussing meout and stuff and I told him he was not riding with me talking like that. I am supposed to take him to work with me and thenbetty picks him up but he kept on and on so I left him there and went to work. Well while Iwas on myway to work he called mama and told her I left him, and she called yelling at me and shit and I told her I just couldnt handle him. Shecan't even handle him how am I supposed to. I do so much for him, my whole life revolves around him and autumn and he doesnt appreciate any of it. I don't need yet another person telling me how much of a piece of shit I am. I don't need to hear that shit especially not this week. It is already miserable enough without having to deal with that. Idon't knowwhat to do anymroe. I amsick of it.
NO ONE CARES HOW I AM FEELING ABOUT ANYTHING! it's all about everyone else. Ineed everyone to just give me a break just until next week. I just need abreak.