I have been thinking so much about so much different stuff. I learned from everyone on Pandy's that it can take a long to actually be able to talk about what happened, but I don't have time. I don't think that they YWCA offers counceling but for like 6 months or something. I am never going to get better I might as well just give it up. We were talking about trust being so hard to earn with us, and it is. We were talking about how a lot of us have more trust for our therapist than we have for anyone else.

It is so true. I trust Lila more than I trust anyone. I have told her things that I have never told anyoen else. She knows thngs that I am ashamed of, that disgust me, just things that I would never tell anyone else. It is really going to suck when our meetings are over because I don't think I coudl ever tell anyone else everything I have told Lila. I will probably never talk about ti again when I stop going to the meetings. No one else would actually want to hear about how I feel about everything, about problems with my screwed uo family, about me being *****.

It's going to suck, but W/e. I don't care.

thats all for now. don't really know what else to say.